| Tonight, I count my blessings on two hands |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|09:47 pm] |
I dodged a bullet. Oh lord did I dodge a bullet.
It wasn’t even a low caliber round either.
It was freakin’ massive.
We’re all stupid to some degree. Even the best and brightest out there. Fortunately though, Darwin throws some of us a bone. How I managed to cup my hands around one is beyond me, but then again, it was only after it knocked me the fuck out.
There are sure to djeizus some things in this life I don’t deserve. Whether they’re past events or actual objects, it matters not. As expected, many of these things are out of reach, but yet some are in my possession. I grasp them so tightly I bruise.
I don’t know what would have happened if the bullet hit me. Where, and how flash through my mind, unlike why, which requires little thought. It would have been painful; this is certain. How fortunate to escape one’s scalp in a bony, blood red mosaic of upheaval. |
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| Swashbuckling Fun |
[Nov. 13th, 2004|02:06 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  determined | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Loreena McKennitt - Cymbeline.mp3 | ] |
I'm really perturbed about this sleeping pattern I've adopted over the years. I either sleep nil hours, or else doze off for upwards of 14. Either way, unfortunately, I feel like a complete zombie after crawling out of bed. I awoke suddenly this morning, after clocking in about 6 hours. I felt an intense pressure in my sinus, then realized that blood was pouring out of my nose. Hah, it didn't quite hit me at first. I just kind of sat back and allowed it to continue, until I finally came to my senses and jolted to the washroom.
I'm curious as to what the deal is with these nosebleeds I get all the time. They occur upwards of 4, even 5 times a day. Much to my happiness though, I'm undergoing a CT scan this Monday. The new doctor I've been seeing actually knows how to treat a patient, unlike the neanderthal halfwit moron I've been associated with in the past.
Anyhow, I think that's enough bitching for one entry. Heh, to quickly quote my wise friend Alan: "Look, dude. I'll keep checking out your livejournal for sure, but only if you don't adopt the crackpot notion that a centralized weblog bitchfest is, in fact, interesting to the masses :)." Yes, my liege! ;)
Much thanks to Clarice and Irene for sending me amazing music these past few days. Easily some of the best I've heard all year. Hence, I'm in the process of burning you two a cd. Classical can be described as one side of a mountain - Romantic the other. The music on this cd derives the apex. I hope you enjoy. |
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| Which FFX Aeon are you? |
[Nov. 11th, 2004|06:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  calm | ] |
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| | Apocalyptica - Reflections - 07 - Conclusion.mp3 | ] |
Take the quiz: "What FFX Aeon are you?"
Anima
You may feel chained up at times. But when you power is released, there is no stopping you.
Well, Anima was certainly my favourite Aeon of any Final Fantasy. With the exception of possibly Bahamut Zero from FF7, no summon has wowed me as much as the aeon whose fayth was Seymour's mother. Good times...
The description seems quite fitting as well. |
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| First Post! |
[Nov. 11th, 2004|02:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Telemann - Viola Concerto In G | ] |
Well ladies and gentlemen, I figured it was about time I joined the LJ community. I've always wanted to keep a journal of some sort, so this website was alluring. Everybody needs a place to unleash their bitter diatribes, and what better than the impassive domain of text! Proceeding on with things...
Last night, for the first time in quite a while, I went out with friends and partied into the early morning. I really needed that, more than many could imagine. It felt amazing to let go of every problem and play pool/halo2 within the company of old friends. My buddy Dave purchased a new pool table, so needless to say, an inaugural game coupled with alcohol and loud music was definitely in order. It was a great night.
Sadly, thoughts of that event have already been clouded over with other less appealing recollections. For the past 4 months, and perhaps even earlier, my mind has been plagued by several issues which shouldn't even affect me. These issues however, somehow manage to completely mindfuck my temperament to hell and back. It's ridiculous that I focus on them so readily, but it's difficult to stray. I always tell myself that things work out in the end - hell, even my friends are sick of hearing it from me, but for the first time in my life I doubt this. If otherwise, the end has either arrived and already laid claim - ergo, there is invisible goodness entangled in what's come of me, or else the end is so distant that any set means of "working out" is simply vacuous. *sigh*
I picked up a new novel yesterday - "Paragon Lost" by Dave Duncan. I was never really a fan of his previous work (The King's Blades tales), but I do find this new chronicle to be an interesting read. 100 or so pages into the book, the character development is easily its most desirable quality. Thus far, it's not overly set in a world of "in your face" fantasy, where [slight exaggeration] every second page a tumultuous hero must do battle with 13 orcish fiends, from which his allies - a surly dwarf and enchanting mage deliver their assistance, "barely survive" and push onwards to retrieve glowy-rock from glackenshpain. I'll post a full review upon completion.
Anyhow, I should really head up to school to read over some algorithms. I'm pretty disappointed in how I've treated 413 this semester. I faired pretty well on the midterm, but not nearly as well as I could have. I mean, the material isn't even that difficult. Compared to an Abstract Algebra course I aced during the summer, it's a cakewalk. I just haven't been putting any thought into it. This will certainly change.
Ciao! |
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